“who gave you the rights to hide away all your feelings? I didn’t.”
Yes. You sure didn’t.
I didn’t hide anything.
I just didn’t want anyone to know that i am broken into millions of pieces.
May be i felt Hiraeth- the yearning, the grief for someone that was never yours, to experience a deep sense of incompleteness tinged with longings.
But you know what? At the same time i feel Elixir just by the thought that i am privileged to think about him that way. I know i am not supposed to think about him all the time and i am also not supposed to get addicted to bottle of wine that keeps me going through every night.
But i am soon going to get used to this cringe and all his memories will fade away.
Because yes, happy endings do exist.